Dear Mom, Where are you,

In spite of whole last 5 & half years(after my mom's death), I always feel my mom is here with me in each and every second and i never feel she doesnt exist physically among us, but this time during my long stay in my hometown (specially after 5 years), i am feeling so nostalgic about it by looking at each corner of our house which is filled up with her memories,(particularly in my case since i had spent many hours talking with her),,again and again remembering her memories at each point and corner of this house, and

this time i am feeling how much i need her ,,,,,

and her empty place here,,,,,,
where are you mom,,,,where are you,,,,,,

i need you here this time ,,,,,,,, how much i feel your empty place here,,,,,,,,, how much i feel the need of your impact in my life and our family,,,,,,,,, how much i need you to talk to you,,,,

how much i need your power and impact on our family decisions,

where are you mom,,,,
just i was remembering and thinking about many many issues in my life and the amount of help she would have given to me and our family at current situation and my life,,, i was listening to the song by Eric Clapton
"Holy Mother",,,,i would like to share this song with all of you,friends:

Holy Mother, where are you?

Tonight I feel broken in two.
I've seen the stars fall from the sky.
Holy mother, can't keep from crying.

Oh I need your help this time,
Get me through this lonely night.
Tell me please which way to turn
To find myself again.

Holy mother, hear my prayer,
Somehow I know you're still there.
Send me please some peace of mind;
Take away this pain.

I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait any longer.
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait for you.

Holy mother, hear my cry,
I've cursed your name a thousand times.
I've felt the anger running through my soul;
All I need is a hand to hold.

Oh I feel the end has come,
No longer my legs will run.
You know I would rather be
In your arms tonight.

When my hands no longer play,
My voice is still, I fade away.
Holy mother, then I'll be
Lying in, safe within your arms.