"True Love"

Dear Friends, almost last 10 days its raining heavily and continuously here. In spite of I am from Northern Iran,,and Used to see much rain but here simply its too much,,,,
missing my love,,,and all brought something out of my mind to write,,,,


"TRUE LOVE "

Sitting, Sitting in front of the sea,
Oh, there is a boy,
looking at the waves,
May be, may be thinking of his babe,
every time the waves hit the shore,
Remembering her,
by each wave comes from far away,
Remembering each moment being with her,
Going with the waves,
without knowing,
Where the journey is taking him,
Sometimes it throws him away,
to a point which is called zero,
Sometimes it takes him,
to the highest point in the sky,
Ohhhh, Babe,
But wherever it takes him,
by looking at her eyes,
comes back to a point,
which is called,
“True love”
(Mohammad - 30/07/10)
(5:00 PM, Manipal)

Some people are the meaning of God on earth !

Tonight just i was a bit nostalgic and i had a feeling to listen to willie nelson , i found a new video of his song which just influenced me a lot. so just i told myself ; some people are the real meaning of God on earth !!,,,,,and willie is one of those,,,,,maybe if you see the link below you agree with me !!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=deebKNI-dTE

Its amazing video of him,,,,,

New season in my life, By the grace of God, Ahura Mazda and the power of love,,,the season which i wanna continue forever.

In spite of Itried my best to write a post for our persian new year which i was far from home for 6 years,but in fact i didnt get time for it. But now i am in a condition which is totally a new season in my life which i am happy for it, which i was searching for it for a long time, which i was waiting for it for a long time and now i feel that season started by the grace of God, Ahura Mazda and the power of love. Just wanted to share my happiness with you all friends. This is the season which i wanna continue forever.

Back in India after 8 months

I am back in India again after 8 months,,,,in spite of I was busy with some resaerch projects & academic works during my stay in Iran, but still it was an opportunity for me to examine myself regarding many issues and many aspects. It was a good time to see the real picture of many issues (from family, to social and psychology of poeple and so on,,,) in Iran after about 6 years of living in India. Maybe just could say still we have long way to go,,,,,i feel this is the most concise phrase i can use,,,,but i feel sad inside about it.
Maybe from my previous posts during my stay in Iran, you feel my trip was much more nostalgic,,,yes it was,,,,but anyway , this is life and it will continue and it has to,,,,
just, Hope is alive ,,,so we are alive,,,

Dear Mom, Where are you,

In spite of whole last 5 & half years(after my mom's death), I always feel my mom is here with me in each and every second and i never feel she doesnt exist physically among us, but this time during my long stay in my hometown (specially after 5 years), i am feeling so nostalgic about it by looking at each corner of our house which is filled up with her memories,(particularly in my case since i had spent many hours talking with her),,again and again remembering her memories at each point and corner of this house, and

this time i am feeling how much i need her ,,,,,

and her empty place here,,,,,,
where are you mom,,,,where are you,,,,,,

i need you here this time ,,,,,,,, how much i feel your empty place here,,,,,,,,, how much i feel the need of your impact in my life and our family,,,,,,,,, how much i need you to talk to you,,,,

how much i need your power and impact on our family decisions,

where are you mom,,,,
just i was remembering and thinking about many many issues in my life and the amount of help she would have given to me and our family at current situation and my life,,, i was listening to the song by Eric Clapton
"Holy Mother",,,,i would like to share this song with all of you,friends:

Holy Mother, where are you?

Tonight I feel broken in two.
I've seen the stars fall from the sky.
Holy mother, can't keep from crying.

Oh I need your help this time,
Get me through this lonely night.
Tell me please which way to turn
To find myself again.

Holy mother, hear my prayer,
Somehow I know you're still there.
Send me please some peace of mind;
Take away this pain.

I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait any longer.
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait for you.

Holy mother, hear my cry,
I've cursed your name a thousand times.
I've felt the anger running through my soul;
All I need is a hand to hold.

Oh I feel the end has come,
No longer my legs will run.
You know I would rather be
In your arms tonight.

When my hands no longer play,
My voice is still, I fade away.
Holy mother, then I'll be
Lying in, safe within your arms.

Ooooohhhhh, Home town, memories, people,memories,people,memories,,,,

This time during my long stay in my hometown , I am facing new experiences with people (may not all of them a happy or enjoyable, or better to say may be most of them are nostalgic for me ! ),
Tonight i attended a wedding party (ofcourse an Iranian style) after about 7 years. In spite of i never liked this kind of wedding parties(mostly because of the type of B..l sh..t music they play and some B..L S..t customs, which i wished to be at least some of our proud traditional persian customs not these kind of mixed nonsense !!), this wedding party just was interesting for me since i was attending such kind after about 7 years !!,,,,and meeting some people after a long time,,,,
Ooooohhhhhh, memories, hmetown, memories, people, memories, memories,,,,
i was greeting many people, and just remembering my late mom and many discussions and memories with her regarding many issues and many of those people,,,,sometimes i feel it will be very difficult for me to live in this place again with such memories,,,,
Oooooohhhhhhh, memories, hometown, memories, people, memories, memories,,,,,,
but concurrnetly, from the other side, i was having totally a different type of feeling this time by attending such party, by looking at different couples who were dancing together, this time ,somehow i was understanding their feelings or at least to geuss such feelings,,,and the reason for this different feeling was maybe due to some changes in my life which is happening these days,,,,,and i am so happy for that, because since last 2 months i am feeling i found my lost ring,my lost piece,or my completeing stone piece in my life,,,,,,and all these giving me a new kind of motivation in my life in directing my life arrow,,,,,,,
Oooooohhhhhh, memories, hometown, memories, people, memories, memories,,,,,
but anyway,,,,I say thank you to God, for all whatever giving me in my life,,,,and i am happy for all that,,,,but still, God, help me ,,help me,,,and help me,,,,
Oooooohhhhhh, memories, hometown, memories, people, memories, memories,,,,,
and i feel the "wind of change' in my life,,,,,

Experiencing the autumn again in my hometown after 5 years

The real autumn started from tonight but with almost one and half month delay, and i have a strange feeling , i dont know whether "strange" is the right word to explain my feelings. Becuase its a mixture of feelings of strange, nostalgic, to imagine to be alone in such night with the person i love, listening to the sound of rain, at the same time to sit in a place where I used to sit during my high school time and studying for the university entrance exam ! , in a place where sometimes I used to sit with my mom and spend whole night and talk to her, and ofcourse sometimes during the same time autumn time and listening to the rain(but ofcourse you can understand the difference in the feelings during these listenings to the rain sound, !!) ,,,,,and now after 5-6 years experiencing the same environment,,,,but many things has been changed in life,,,,,,,,
first of all, I am not the same person !,but maybe still many of my thoughts are in the same direction but just more depthful,,,
in spite of my mom doesnt exist physically, but i am living with her and her thoughts all the time,,,,,,
the relationships inside the family has changed a lot,,,,nobody is the same as 5 years ago !,,,,(maybe the reason is the loss of my late mom,,,the power and the pillor of the family,,,,,)
and ,,,finaly,at least something new,,,,,,something energizing in my life,,,,something is happening in my life which is giving me an extra energy to overcome all the difficulties,,,,,something is happening in my heart ,,,,,just i am feeling i am F.I.L. .........and this is the greatest thing is happening in my life,,,,,which i am thinking seriously about it,,,,,ohhhhhhhhhhh,,,,my God,,,,its an amazing feeling,,,,
and I am experiencing all of these,,,after 5 years during the autumn in my hometown,,,,
and tonight the real autumn started here,,,its raining and I am listening to the sound of rain again but with all these changes,,,,
maybe the only thing is the same is the sound of rain,,,,,but,,,,,,nooooooooo,,,,,,,,the autumn rain also started later !!!!
all of these feelings tonight ,,,made me to be awake and sit to write this page,,,,,,
ohhhhhhhhhhh,,,my God,,,i dont know how to explain these feelings,,,,its not possible to explain in a single word,,,sentence, phrase, paragraph,,page, chapter or even a book,,,,,
thats why i like just to lie down next to the person i am thinking about and listen to the sound of rain,,,,and look at each other,,,,,sometimes just eyes can talk to each other without even saying a word,,,,,tonight i want to talk in this way till morning,,,,,,,,,
ohhhhhhhhhhhh....my God,,,,thanks for everything,,,,,,